I feel like I'm on the tip of the pinnacle of my existence. Can you picture that - does it make sense to you that my toe is the only thing makes contact with the pinnacle and at any point I could move in any direction - but completely enveloped in love.
Does this make any sense? What about the overwhelming sense of love that I have that I can't help bawling uncontrollably. Or what about the ache that I have for those that don't understand my freedom and the vastness of God. What about how the intricacies and syncronisity of everything ~
Its crazy!!!! And It's moving quickly forward!
God continues to take me to new places - moment by moment. There is no fear in what I am experiencing - but I am completely embracing what the concept of "doing greater things than these" means. It cannot be explained unless I completely give up on every thought or belief that I determined was integrity. Completely broken of all boxes - no remains of any box, morally, ethically, spiritually, physically. God has complete control. I have not a worry about following any prescribed rule.
I don't expect you to understand me - not at all. Just to observe, see how God flows. How his awesome vastness is more than enough for me. His vast love, his creation, his joy - it completely envelops me every moment. The things we pray about, sing about, read about - all my life was just lip service - not experiential. Now I know - I know what pure joy feels like, I know what serenity feels like, I know what not having a care about my existence and sustenance feels like. And not just a drop of joy or serenity but pools of it that completely cover me every moment and not just glimpses. Am I blessed to be in the place I am - Absolutely.. but It's God's perfect plan.
Every moment is a gift - not one second do I wish to waste not growing, learning, loving, experiencing, fully being here in the moment, not worrying about future, what I have no control over, what someone else might think. No life is too short!
Will I falter - absolutely, will I doubt - sadly yes.
Ok - enough of my rambles... lock me in the crazy ward - that's fine by me!
Here and present ~ T
Does this make any sense? What about the overwhelming sense of love that I have that I can't help bawling uncontrollably. Or what about the ache that I have for those that don't understand my freedom and the vastness of God. What about how the intricacies and syncronisity of everything ~
Its crazy!!!! And It's moving quickly forward!
God continues to take me to new places - moment by moment. There is no fear in what I am experiencing - but I am completely embracing what the concept of "doing greater things than these" means. It cannot be explained unless I completely give up on every thought or belief that I determined was integrity. Completely broken of all boxes - no remains of any box, morally, ethically, spiritually, physically. God has complete control. I have not a worry about following any prescribed rule.
I don't expect you to understand me - not at all. Just to observe, see how God flows. How his awesome vastness is more than enough for me. His vast love, his creation, his joy - it completely envelops me every moment. The things we pray about, sing about, read about - all my life was just lip service - not experiential. Now I know - I know what pure joy feels like, I know what serenity feels like, I know what not having a care about my existence and sustenance feels like. And not just a drop of joy or serenity but pools of it that completely cover me every moment and not just glimpses. Am I blessed to be in the place I am - Absolutely.. but It's God's perfect plan.
Every moment is a gift - not one second do I wish to waste not growing, learning, loving, experiencing, fully being here in the moment, not worrying about future, what I have no control over, what someone else might think. No life is too short!
Will I falter - absolutely, will I doubt - sadly yes.
Ok - enough of my rambles... lock me in the crazy ward - that's fine by me!
Here and present ~ T
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