Unnecessarily Pretentiously Alternative

So the whole concept about the way I think – how it has morphed over the past years to such an extreme change that I hardly recognize who I used to be. Did I really think that way? Did I really love struggle so much that I held onto it for dear life? My mind is a clear vessel these days. Observing beauty in everyday life – and wondering how I missed it all these years. Moving forward through life wanting to explore and experience everything possible. Not dismissing opportunities for fear of what people will think or is it the ‘right’ thing to do, or maybe there’s something better. But the thing is – all my current way of thinking was not ever introduced to me by the church or christians. The experiences I have now I feel the need to closet them for ‘fear’ of being labeled blaspheme, back sliding, causing another the stumble, and so many more christianeze.
So maybe it’s time I escaped from my closet – let you know what I really think. You don’t have to agree actually I’d prefer you didn’t always. If you feel led to pray for my dying soul – so be it. But in all honesty, peace prevails in my life right now.